Oh! How I try not to be deemed as old-fashioned!
Oh! How I ache to be at least in touch with the needs, the thoughts and the trends of the younger generation!
Oh! How I desire not to come across as out of date … out of touch … or over that infamous hill.
But let’s face it – at this age – I do indeed have a lot of years of living under my belt.
At this point in my life’s journey - I know a thing or two about life … about marriage … about parenting … about choosing well … about waiting … about wisdom … and about prayer.
At least I hope I do.
I try to dress fashionably youthful yet not come across as that older woman in teen-age clothes.
I like to think that my style is “timeless” rather than “yesterday”.
I sincerely attempt to sprinkle my speech with well-chosen colloquialisms of the day without seeming inconsequential or sarcastic.
I am certainly not “hip” … but neither am I antiquated.
I often read what my 20-something daughters and their friends are reading so that I will keep my fingers on the pulse beat of those incredible people known as “millennials”.
I follow young moms … young authors … young pastors … and young thinkers on all types of social media.
I even know what Reddit and Tumblr are … do you?!
However – I do believe that the place where the numerous years of my life is perhaps the most obvious is in my choice of music.
I am a musician and I have raised all of my children to love music. Three of my five children majored in music in college.
We McLeods know our music …
I will be the first to admit, however, that I am hopelessly outdated, old-fashioned and vintage when it comes to the music that I enjoy.
First of all – I’ll take a waltz over hip-hop, a sonata rather than rap and a concerto over electronica any day of my life!
Chopin, Gershwin and Debussey are on my playlist rather than Beyonce, Maroon 5 and Drake.
(As a matter of fact – I don’t even know who Drake is. I had to look up who had the #1 song on Billboard.)
And, when it comes to Christian music, it’s true … from time to time I do enjoy Bethel, Hillsong, and gifted contemporary musicians such as Lauren Daigle.
However, the Christian music that truly inspires me is at least decades old!
Music has always had the rare and rich ability to touch my soul in the very deepest place of me.
My heart aches with unmatched joy when I hear these lyrics:
“I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold … I’d rather be His than have riches untold.
I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands: I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hands.”
I am forced to the altar of my heart as I evaluate those challenging lyrics. Would I?! Would I really rather than Jesus than silver or gold?! Would I truly rather be His than have riches untold?
And the whisper of my heart cries … I would! I would rather have Jesus than anything!
And then, there are times that I sit and reminisce over the legacy I have been given due to a family that valued the church and loved the Lord. In those sweet moments, I can still hear my father’s voice singing:
“Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, sweetest Name that I know!
Fills my every longing – keeps me singing as I go!”
Oh, Dad! You were right! Jesus is the sweetest Name that I know! He fills my deepest desires and He has never failed to give me an unquenchable song!
And I must admit that one of the unarguable perquisites in judging a song to be a truly great composition is that it must hold solid theology and undeniable truth in every line –
“Great is Thy Faithfulness – Oh God, my Father.
There is no shadow of turning with Thee!
Thou changest not – Thy compassions they fail not!
As Thou has been thou forever wilt be!”
I want to know Jesus better because of the songs that I sing. I want to declare Who He is over my circumstances as I sing my songs of faith that the saints in every generation have sung before me.
And, finally, who can resist the triumph that springs forth in an ordinary person’s soul when these words are proclaimed with the power of the accompanying melody:
Joyful, joyful, we adore Thee! God of glory, God of love!
Hearts unfold like flowers before Thee, opening to the Son above!
Melt the clouds of sin and sadness – drive the dark of doubt away.
Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day!”
You might judge me as “old” due to the music that sings perpetually in my soul … but I believe that it is music that has kept me young!
The unmatched song that continues to dominate the soundtrack of my life has given me a spring in my step and a sparkle in my eyes.
How about you? What is your favorite song? I’d love to hear from you … and sing a stanza or two together!
Thanks for listening to my heart this week. As you know by now, my heart is truly not a perfect heart but it is a heart that is filled to overflowing with gratitude for the life I have been given and for the people who walk with me. And, it continues to be a heart that is relentlessly chasing after God and all that He is!